A petty rant

I am so very very very thankful to have made it to the 2nd Trimester (as of today!) and I couldn't be happier about it.
But, there's something bothering me. Its silly and petty and not really worth anyone's time but I think I will feel better if I can get it off my chest for now.

I wish I had lost all the weight I wanted prior to getting pregnant. Having extra weight it okay, I'm not obese or anything but it still makes it difficult I guess. My bump wont show for a while because I have so much extra weight that keeps it from being obvious. Sure my pants may feel tight to me, but to everyone else it looks like I hit that "fat or pregnant" stage pretty early on. My fear is I wont grow out of the "fat or pregnant" stage any time soon. I carry about 10 extra pounds around my middle which means my weight gain through this pregnancy should be less than average. I think. Maybe. I will have to ask my doctor tomorrow I suppose!

But ya, that's my petty rant and I'm done. The feeling of missing out makes me sad. My SiL showed at 14 weeks because she's so petite and the baby didn't really have anywhere else to go but out, I guess I'm just jealous.