This Christmas

It should be Daniel's first Christmas and the Twin's third.
There should be so many more presents under the tree with the names James, Kylie, and Daniel on each little tag,
"Baby's First Christmas" ornaments hung on the boughs,
Screams of laughter and the tearing of paper should be filling the air,
"Mommy look at this!"
"Daddy help!"
Patters of feet as little ones run for hugs,
Daniel playing with paper instead of the toys,
Parents and Grandparents glowing with cheer,
Instead there is silence,
Barren boughs without decoration,
Sad smiles and hugs exchanged after gifts,
It should be Daniel's first Christmas and the Twin's third.

Merry Christmas

Not Coping

I'm not coping.
Not at all.
The prescription drugs in my room are starting to look friendly.
I know its wrong.
Death isn't the answer.
Quiting isn't the answer.
Sometimes it gets too hard to handle it all.
School, money, lack of work, grief, relationships.
I need to run away and escape.
I wish I could.
I'm not coping at all.

Cupcakes

Cupcakes and three candles for Kylie's birthday.

Of course Kylie's teddy (with her ashes) were present for her cupcakes and candles!

Happy 3rd Heavenly Birthday Kylie!

Happy 3rd Birthday Kylie!
You're my little princess and I love you so much!

Mommy and Daddy miss you.

Many kisses.

Love,

Mommy

Angel Christmas Project

I've started the Angel Christmas Project. 

I will be making photos such as the one above ^ for Angel Parents.

Christmas and the holidays are so hard for Angel Parents and sometimes its the little things that help. 

If you'd like a photo for your angel please leave a comment below or contact me on Facebook.

All pictures are taken by me and edited on my computer.