What is going on?

I feel like I'm loosing him all over again.
Daniel, why do I feel like you're slipping away?
There's no real reason for it, I'm healing and that's healthy, right?
Then why do I feel so horrible?
Why do I feel like I'm leaving him behind?
Whats wrong with me...
I love him just as much.
I miss him less because I'm accepting he's not ever going to be here.
I'm accepting that I will never hold him, never kiss him, and never tell him I love him.
Is that wrong?
Is my acceptance really me letting go?
I don't want to let go, I don't want to forget.
Can I forget? Is that even possible?
Why do I feel like this?