I've been trying to process it and I've finally decided to just put it out there.
Between August 7th and 8th I experienced a blighted ovum (BO) due to failed birth control.
Honestly, I don't know how to handle it or how to respond. I'm floating in a limbo of grief and relief.
There was no baby- merely a blastocyst in its 2nd week of growth.
My birth control failed (meaning I failed to take it properly) and when it got back in my system it did its job to stop the forming of a fertilized egg.
I am relieved that an unplanned pregnancy is not in my future, and my education is not at risk.
On the other hand my chance at a family was given and taken before I could even have a say in it.
I don't know how to feel... I really don't.
The whole ordeal so far has just made me miss Daniel more.
Between August 7th and 8th I experienced a blighted ovum (BO) due to failed birth control.
Honestly, I don't know how to handle it or how to respond. I'm floating in a limbo of grief and relief.
There was no baby- merely a blastocyst in its 2nd week of growth.
My birth control failed (meaning I failed to take it properly) and when it got back in my system it did its job to stop the forming of a fertilized egg.
I am relieved that an unplanned pregnancy is not in my future, and my education is not at risk.
On the other hand my chance at a family was given and taken before I could even have a say in it.
I don't know how to feel... I really don't.
The whole ordeal so far has just made me miss Daniel more.
I'm so sorry love. I wish I could hold you and let you cry. I'm here if and when you want to talk about everything
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