5 days

There are 5 days left until Daniel's second "birthday". I know most parents use "angelversary" but I don't want to... it was the day he left my body and was "born" so its his birthday.
The lead up to his day is always so much worse than the actual day.
This year I'm completely alone this week and on his day. Well, alone in the sense of people who know about him, and those who are physically with me.
Dave is on the west side of the state, my friends have all left town for the summer, and those who are still here aren't close enough friends to know about my angels yet.
I do have to work on Sunday... I'm not sure how I'll handle it. I'm going to do my very best, and I'm not going to cry. Well no guarantees on the tears but I'm going to damn well try!
Part of me wants to tell my friend Saber about Daniel... but I don't want to scare her away either. Its hard to share my angels with other people.
The lead up to anniversaries are always so much worse than the actual day. Always.
I keep trying to tell myself its all going to be okay, and that I will get through this, but honestly right now I just want to die....