The lead up to an anniversary is the worst.
I know I've written about this a million times and have beaten it into the ground...
But seriously.
It sucks.
We are 12 days away from Daniel's 3 year Angelversary.
I'm not looking forward to it.
Sure I can focus on school, work, research, and the wedding...
But I don't want to.
I want to be sad, angry, livid that my son isn't here.
And even though it sounds awful- I want my friends and family to feel the same way.
I don't want to be alone.
Sure we're three years out and I should be fine...
I'm not. I'm angry. I'm isolated.
We have all been told it gets easier with time.
It hasn't yet.
I know I've written about this a million times and have beaten it into the ground...
But seriously.
It sucks.
We are 12 days away from Daniel's 3 year Angelversary.
I'm not looking forward to it.
Sure I can focus on school, work, research, and the wedding...
But I don't want to.
I want to be sad, angry, livid that my son isn't here.
And even though it sounds awful- I want my friends and family to feel the same way.
I don't want to be alone.
Sure we're three years out and I should be fine...
I'm not. I'm angry. I'm isolated.
We have all been told it gets easier with time.
It hasn't yet.
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